During the summer, I sometimes play videos of rain sounds. Partly because of my tinnitus, partly for a need to relax. Videos titled “Heavy Rain and Thunder Sounds for Sleeping” would sometimes trick me, and I’d wake up from a nap a bit confused during the first 5 seconds, as if it really were raining outside.

When last autumn arrived, I worried a bit after the first two mornings of rain because, for the first time, I felt desensitised to it. Better said, I was so focused in other matters that I couldn’t stop my monkey mind enough to focus on the rain and enjoy the sound.

It’s been raining since March started, and this is the weekend where that mental block seems to have disappeared. Thanks to conversations with besties, sudden realisations with my therapist, and healthier habits, I feel lighter and with a less cluttered brain. Just a while ago, I realised how cosy I’ve felt the past two nights with the sound of the rain. I’m in bed and it’s expected to rain all night, and the anticipation is making me smile already.